The Gifts of Imperfection

Ok, I actually just got this book in the mail yesterday (and I ordered it like 3 weeks ago...booo).

I started reading it this morning and I have already realized it is exactly what I need right now.

I know you guys don't know this, but I have been struggling on and off with mild depression for a while now. And, with the birth of Liam 6 weeks ago, it has definitely turned into a full blown problem.

My mom and grandmother both struggle with depression as does my dad's sister, so it's a real deal in my family and it sucks.

I am having a hard time coping and seems to be getting worse as my life gets more hectic.

So I decided it is time to get some help.

I don't want my kids growing up with a depressed mom and I'm tired of feeling sad and irritated all the time.

I'm tired of feeling like I can't do anything right and being so down on myself.

I have an appointment on Friday with my OB where I'm hoping to get some sort of medication that can help me be more of the person I know is inside me.

This is why I am loving all the stuff in this book about courage.

I love this:

"Ordinary courage is about putting our vulnerability on the line. In today's world, that's pretty extraordinary."

Then the author talks about how her young daughter had the courage to call her mom when she wanted to come home from the sleepover.

Courage is hard.

I feel so dumb having to go get medication to help me deal with my own life.

But I know it will help and I know I need it, so I need to let go and have the courage to talk to someone.

We have to let go of what other people think and do what we know is right and best for us.

It's hard.

I kind of feel like no matter how many times we try to pretend like we don't care what others think of us, we do to an extent.

But we still need to have the courage to be we are and give ourselves permission to be imperfect and human.

" [....] courage has a ripple effect. Every time we choose courage, we make everyone around us a little better and the world a little braver. And our world could stand to be a little kinder and a little braver" (pg. 15).